As I reflect on my blog and life I have notice a pattern with the men I date. They are all different but one thing that links them is that many are assholes. Is it me?, why do I attract so many characters? Most of the men tell me that I'm a hard female to crack and can be a tad bit sarcastic and mean so why stick around? My adjectives are always feisty, sassy and strong never have gotten sweet or gentle. So as I reflect I wonder do I attract assholes because I'm one myself?
Personally, I have always been a bold, outspoken person and thats not gonna change while in a relationship.So if you date me I'm pretty sure you have notice that beforehand. In the beginning its all interesting and entertaining but that fades into the darkness after a few months and everyone has to return to their corners.I'm over the mess and because I have let me guard down seem to no longer be a challenge anymore. I just don't see why it has to be like two soldiers on the battlefield every single day, why can't we be on the same side instead of opponents. I might be a tough girl but I have to be to many men come with BS and I got to nip the ish early. At the end of the day I am still a woman and can appreciate romance and chivalry. WHERE HAVE THE DAYS GONE?
My new thing is to try and be sweet and maybe I'll get that in return but know it will be hard to change a side of me that has been around forever… its my edge. I would love to say "to hell with it all and if a guy can't handle my smart mouth then he isn't for me," but at the stage of my life where I'm ready maybe it is me and change is needed. Can't be an asshole and want a gentleman.
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