Young Luv...... or was it??

In the late 90’s there was an excess amount of urban stories. I wasn’t into reading much in my teens until I was given “FLY Girl,” followed up by the eye opening “COLDEST WINTER EVER”. Every girl I knew secretly wanted to be Winter searching for their Midnight. Around this time I was uprooted from city living to upstate suburbia……..ugh! I tried to make the best of it since it was new year, new school and perfect time for that new boo. 1st day of school, Goodbye pleated skirts and Hello Parasuco jeans. Within the few hrs I was there I already met my match, his name was Que, he was around my age and definitely the school’s bad boy. Que was a light weight street pharmacist, always got suspended and stayed in fights. To me that was adorable……. SILLY ME! He was my bad boy and no one ever tried me because I was the new girl, Que’s girl. Our young love lasted thru Ja Rule’s “Put it on Me” and the group Next‘s “Butta Love”. We were inseparable but him being a bad boy turned me into a bad girl. I skipped class a few times and grades started slipping. How did the girl who grew up in a structure environment, always on the honor roll ended up with C’s and D’s that led to a parent –teacher conference.

This fun was short-lived bad boys can’t have a main chick for long. Dating him brought on problems like: arguing with my mother, and not really caring about anything but him. How do guys do this to us? I was once focused and he threw me so off balance. After weeks of arguing and countless chicks giving me the side-eye I decided to part ways. Of course there were moments of going back, letters and dedicated love songs but it was just over.

Que was definitely my 1st love, I have never been that consume with a person in my life. Still to this day 5 yrs later he pops up into my head. Songs from 112's “It’s over now,"Musiq's “Love," Case's “Missing you,” and Keyshia Cole’s whole first album keep our memory alive. Why is it the 1st loves affect you this strongly and somehow set the pace for future relationships. Are we secretly trying get that old thing BACK??